(Not) trying to forget
A song my heart sang
I know I’ll never feel the same
As the first time she said my name
I’ll never forget when her eyes lit me
In a room full, but seemingly empty
I’ll always crave the feeling, chase those memories
And that knowledge I’m all someone wants, needs
Please need me again.
Didn’t you see I needed you too?
His eyes were unsteady, fearful
He looked at her from the depths of his soul
His ears rang and the world faded to black
His stomach sank when she didn’t look back.
He had opened himself,
And she had slammed him shut.
It was two years ago today,
There’s not much to say.
I’m scared it’ll hurt her if she sees,
I should just let it be.
But it lingers in my heart distastefully,
Someday, someone will fill the cracks for me
Maybe my saviour will be time,
After all, isn’t it on me to save myself?
I promised myself I would never love
But I'm an infidel to myself, how I secretly hope someone will break the promise.
It was a selfish promise, but love is selfless
And when did love ever care about promises, broken or formed.
And love is slow, I know she’ll make me wait
While she weaves together my heartstrings into a grand and hysterical fate.
I'll toh never forget this:(((